nba.com

sometimes, the pictures they choose are oh so interesting. i didn't even see the ball at first. the positioning and expressions were just too funny.

other guy: yo kobe, can i ???
kobe: ahhhh!!!!

hahaha

dear celtics,

get your act together

sincerely, your fans!

mental health

poor demi lovato: Demi is bipolar, a former cutter and bulimic. i was so shocked to read that.

interestingly enough, we had a medical school symposium on mental health. we broke into small groups and talked about different things. surprising statistic: the mental health services at my school treats 50% of the medical school! i wish they had told us this statistic at the beginning of the year. not so we all drop out, but we so we all know that it's ok to struggle and to seek help!

i'm gonna try to stop being so reckless...

wiz khalifa quotes

dunno how i found him the first time, but his quotes keep popping up everywhere. i've started following him on twitter. he appears to be high all the time but hey. what are you gonna do?

Girls fall in love with what they hear. Boys fall in love with what they see. That's why girls wear make up; and boys lie.

3 things I want in a relationship: Eyes that wont cry, lips than wont lie, and love that wont die.

No matter where I am, no matter where you are, I'll be there when its over baby. Cause I was there from the start.

and dunno who said this one: One of the hardest parts in life is deciding whether to walk away, or try harder.

my horoscope today according to tarot.com: You're eager to have a bit of time at home today, especially if a busy social calendar has kept you jumping throughout the past week. (alright, not really true but hey.) It's healthy to reconsider what you want for yourself now, instead of just keeping up appearances and doing whatever's expected of you. Maintaining your integrity is important. Set new boundaries and, within reason, do whatever makes you feel good.

i find this all funny because i was just thinking today about my relationships and encounters and where they've all brought me. recent events have made me really sad and rethink things and what i think about myself. this has happened before but never to this extent. the things i've said and done and the people i've encountered are different - the experiences are harder, harsher, stronger, fiercer. i need to pick myself back up again.

well, at least i'm not so pessimistic anymore!

on doctoring love

mom asked 8 yo son if his adhd meds were working "i like them. i fell asleep and it's like when i wake up, God took me apart and put me back together the right way." how precious! i never know how i feel about meds and medicating so young but clearly they work. i dont think i was that aware of my body and what made me feel better or worse at 8 but i guess if there's a difference, you notice.

today was a good day at on doc. i did a 12 yo physical but forgot a few things - like looking in her ears (went back to do that!), looking for her red reflex and optic disc/arteries. whoops! but i got most other things. it was my first physical so pretty good for first time! every now and then, though, i feel like i need to push myself more to be perfect.

sometimes, i just feel like perfect is unreasonable though..

haiti, cherie

http://news.yahoo.com/s/nm/20110203/wl_nm/us_haiti_elections_8

dear newspapers, TV news, internet news, etc.,
PLEASE stop calling haiti "the poorest nation in the western hemisphere!" i'm pretty sure we've all understood that by now.
sincerely,
an angry haitian

in all honesty though, is it necessary? i don't think i've read an article about haiti that hasn't included that. it gets frustrating and it also makes me sad. i remember reading an article in 10th grade for french class and that was the first time i saw that and it struck me. it hasn't stopped. obviously, haiti still isn't doing all that well but i don't know if that reminder is necessary. are you trying to make the us look better? remind americans how good we have it? are you trying to get people to help? i just don't get it! it bothers that the only thing people probably think of when they think of haiti is poor, earthquake, and voodoo. how sad!

my first fight

i had my first fight with a friend.

it was my first one in a while.

i didn't like it.

i hated that feeling that came over me.

i hated not knowing what to do next.

i hated not knowing where "we" were gonna go

if we were gonna make it out with our friendship in tact.

i hated it.

and it still bothers me.

troubles

i'm having lots of troubles sorting things out - my emotions, my feelings about school (to split or not to split), my feelings about friends, about my body, about everything. i hate how the world seems to stop until my quizzes are over. no responding to friendly emails, minimal hanging out, maximum alone time (until i crack and hang out with a np friend), lots of library visits, eating alone. it all gets tiresome. today, it's thursday and i can't wait for it to be monday at 10AM. everything's just dragged on and tiring. i have to decline invititations, attempt to keep myself off facebook and youtube, and just focus on my school work. it takes a lot of effort and sometimes, i just want to stop.

i've also realized that i'm a pretty bitter person. probably, more bitter than most people expect of me. sometimes, i want to stop and smell the roses. other times, i wonder what the hell's the point? they're just roses! it makes me wonder if i'm missing the point. not appreciating life at this moment or that moment. how can i if i'm so stressed? i have a lot riding on the next quiz and i don't like it. maybe i'll end up with performance anxiety. maybe my fate for school, for this year, will be decided for me and i won't have to think/stress about these things anymore. i just want to relax again.

funny, you thought i was always so calm and composed. turns out, you never really know...