Wednesday, November 10, 2010

dear body, don't settle

i've been working out, although not consistently, so i could be all "bikini ready"... in the fall/pre-winter. but my body/the scale is not cooperating. oh well. supposedly, charlie likes me for who i am. right? o__o

tonight was gymnastics and it was fun, of course. we worked on back handsprings (on mat with yuriy spotting us and on the tumble track) and front handsprings onto a mat. yuriy's ukranian! i'm glad i found out without having to ask him. he's a cool guy. he randomly did one of those handstand thingies that guys can do on the parallel bars and then decided to do a standing back tuck i think. jo ling's so graceful on her front handsprings and i think i just muscle them around. hmmm.. nastia/shawn anyone? hopefully i don't run like shawn! she then taught me the beam routine after i worked on my bars. i can do a pullover, cast, back hip circle. i worked on my single leg cut backward. it's crazy how fast you go. i can only imagine how the olympians feel, it must really feel like flying.

less than 2 weeks to hawaii! can't wait!!!!
and yet i'm scared at the same time, but life goes on.

off to study for finals

Friday, November 5, 2010

it's just those rainy days

one of my top 10 favorite songs of all time. i used to sing it when i had to swim the 200 fly... long course. that last lap, oh man! it's like the wall gets further and further away with each stroke!

It's just those rainy days
Spend a lifetime tryin to wash away
Until the sun come out and shines again
Smile for me, smile for me

All of those rainy days
Spend ya lifetime tryin to wash away
Until the sun shines and I see your face
Smile at me, smile at me

We were always livin so crazy and sexy and cool
And we began to love it
Watchin all of the heartache and pain of the world
And thinkin nothin of it

And baby I got love for you
And I know that you got me, baby
But everytime the sun shines bright
It gets so cloudy

Nobody loves the rain
Can't stand it
We know we've seen it before
Baby, handle it
Baby, what did we tell ya before
About chasin those waterfalls

Sometimes the rule don't mind the rain
It kinda feels like I'm drownin in the Lords pain
Until the sun comes out and shines again
Smile, and give me reason to keep believin
That everything ain't misleadin
And I, kiss the clouds on them rainy days
And, smile for you when ya skys are gray
Babe, cuz I'm a tear drop away from crying
And a few shots away from dying
Dear Lord, would you shower my pain
Let it rain, let it rain on me
While I cherish the air I breathe
I'm an angel, that can't soar, can't fly
And I, mastered it Lord knows why


I feel like an angel
With my broken wings
So I can soar again
Lord let me in
Baby through all the passion the pain and the hurt
I feel like I'm fallin, yeah
Makin clothes for all of those that
Spread love
And for those who can't take it
Stand up
Baby, we gonna make it
In the words of Marvin Gaye
War is not the answer

Til the sun shines
Just smile for me
Know in your heart, that we are free
Free to believe, whatever we feel
So feel somethin real, baby




i've decided that i want to go to haiti for the summer. it's not school-related, it's me related. i loved france so much and it was my first time out of the us (depending on whether or not you count puerto rico). i think i should go back. back to somewhere i've never been. who knows, maybe i'll find my long lost twin haha :)

another quiz weekend coming up. i can't focus long enough to study, i mean it is friday. i might go to jl's and get a bit of work done. i want to finish biochem and that last cto (aka histology) lecture so that tomorrow i have physio and anatomy to look over and then i can start actually studying and memorizing. it's funny how after more than 2 months i still don't have a study schedule down. oh well.

finals are coming up and the stress level is slowly rising, mine and my classes. it was bound to happen but i don't like it. i want one more post-quiz party. i want more good times BUT i also can't wait for thanksgiving break. it couldn't come soon enough. i'm getting so frustrated with my roller coaster of emotions, stress from this test, stress from finals, and just trying to stay positive. oy.

dear rollercoasters,
normally, i love you, but this roller coaster i want to get off of. please?
k. thx. bai!